One of the few times that I really want rain to just fall.

Why am I feeling so anxious?


Again, this feeling is overcoming me, like a wave that just doesn't cease to crash against the eroded rocks.

• 12:42 Man dis play about ducks and shit SUCKS DICK #

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• 08:45 You know you go to the nurses office frequently when they know your name right as you walk through the door. #

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To come back to school after a three week vacation dedicated to doing absolutely nothing is very hard. I wasn't excited to go back at all, even for social circumstances, seeing as how I saw everyone I wanted to see during the vacation, except for maybe less than a handful of people. I don't know, maybe it's the fact that I actually need to do work again that gets me lethargic and slightly pissed, but my last week of vacation was halfway dedicated to finishing Winter Vacation homework, which is total bullshit, but whatever.

It was nice to see some people, but all in all, it was a day filled with nothing to do except meet and greet old friends. Italian and English were entertaining, but when it came to sixth period, I began to feel the effects of being tired. I rarely fall asleep in classes, so it was just me heavy lidded and looking at the computer screen, reading about the Israel-Gaza Conflict and amputation. That class made me SO SLEEPY.

fuck.

and I still need to finish about ten or so mini essays dedicated to analyzing quotes that don't make any sense.


THINGS TO DO
[ ] finish Ind. Study essays...ALL OF THEM
[ ] start Father and Sons
[ ] work on italian translations/AP Italian workbook

When I first saw a clip of Superjail!, my initial reaction to it was a type of fear and disgust at the show's horrific display of creepy imagery and gory violence, all jam packed into a period of ten minutes. Just watching one episode, already turned me off to the images of blunt violence that becomes a commonplace attribute in every episode, and I considered myself done with the series.

...only I wasn't. The thing is, is that I couldn't get Superjail! out of my head, as much as I wanted to force myself away from such an abomination of a show that believes ripping peoples heads off is something funny which, it turns out, is in a sick way. As I watched the first episode, I couldn't help but be slightly amused by the characters which are all dysfunctional in their own way, and then when it was time for the penultimate part of the episode where all-out chaos ensues, and where violence and death looms literally everywhere, you can't help but be shocked not just at the enormous amounts of blood and gore there is, but also at the amazing fluidity in animation the show has in said violence.

Needless to say, after watching three more episodes and then seeing it on the television screen, I no longer found it sickeningly disturbing, but hilariously disturbing.

What was at first a horrible acid trip is now a hilariously disturbing comedy of how a Flamboyant Willy Wonka-esque character comes up with insane schemes that usually ends up in chaos, with the help of his subordinates and two weird as hell twins that look like a cross between a blonde Mona Lisa and Severus Snape.


If you can take violence...try it out. It's actually easily addicting and kind of witty. It's not a breakthrough show, not at all, but it's just like its predecessor, Beavis and Butthead, in which it pushed the limit of what a cartoon could show on live television.

LOL, LIVEJOURNAL BLOWOUT. Of course, something's going on in the inner workings of livejournal that's making it shut down. This is the second (or third?) time eljay has broken down in the past couple of weeks.

I'm not sure if Livejournal is going to let their site get to the point of shutting down permanently, but if that situation ever does arise, all of my information can be find in my userinfo. I'm also the proud owner of an inksome now, which can be found here.


So it's my final week of Winter Vacation and I, just now, am starting my vacation homework which is, heh, ACTUALLY A LOT MORE than I expected it to be. It's not as if it's so hard that it's going to take a lot of my time to finish it, it's just that I'm so not down to go back to school next week that I'm just procrastinating. Literally, all I did in my first semester of Senior year was freak out about projects, presentations, tests and essays until finally the whole entire semester turned out to be this monotonous thing that I couldn't take. Seriously, it was like the breaks in-between each class were so boring that I would actually want to return to my classes...I would do and feel the same thing every day, until finally it began to rub off on me in a negative way.

Not like much happened during Winter Vacation, it's just that it's a great break away from school, and I actually wish that it were longer. Yeah, there have been times within my two and a half weeks where I'm just itching to leave my house to walk around, but have never thought of school as somewhere to "go." It's no longer fun...it's sad.

My desk is really dirty from cleaning my backpack. Even though I tried to organize some papers in order, I just can't deal with even looking at essays and studying for a RANDOM HISTORY TEST THAT AWAITS ME WHEN I GET BACK, WTF. Thanks a lot, dumbass class, for wanting to take a test AFTER break, when it's significantly wiser to just take it and fail it before the break.


Things I want:
+School to be less stressful
+Finishing my Geometry course online, which I haven't even completed (and needs to be done by February)
+An answer to all of this tension between Anthony and I, that drives me insane
+To just admit that I'm actually not happy or rooting for him to go out with Hannah
+To enjoy second semester of Senior year
+Origa's "Era of Queens"
+To work on my driver's ED and get it done!
+To finish all of my work
+Something that pleases my sexual appetite
+For Lady Gaga to go away...or to start doing beautiful renditions of her songs, like this.
+HEAT HEAT HEAT HEAT. I need it to be warm.

Superjail! is the WEIRDEST cartoon ever.


wtf.

My tree leans on its side, slanted from its constant yet slow growth in the little pot that it was provided. I had bought the small "European" tree from a Ralph's, so my room can have some plant life. I'm not too keen on flowers in my room, especially dry ones that supposedly brighten up the space. Honestly, I can care less for a plant life, but this tree has lasted for almost a month and a half.

Every few days, I supply it with quick re-hydration of its soil and a spray of water to its body. Whenever possible, I let it rest on my sill to catch some rays from the minimal amount of sunlight that comes through the window. It came to a point that I played it some Björk, as a joke, but plants do respond well to music or conversation.

I'm not sure when it started to lean, but the weight from its growing body began to be too much and, like every good and healthy plant, started to lean on its side from the heaviness. I also looked at the soil, to see if it needed any watering, and discovered that the roots are beginning to lift up from said soil. I'm guessing there isn't any more space below?

All I remember from the directions was that, after the Holidays, it can be planted outside to grow larger than ever, and I want to do it. I find the concept of planting a tree interesting and revitalizing. My tree needs a little stick, though, to support it, but I'm not sure whether to wait or to just do it now.

My tree leans on its side, without any support. It's imperfect in its own way, just like people are, but it has its quirks.

Ever since Christmas passed, the days have become increasingly boring. I've probably watched five films in two days, and my checks on the computer have slowed down substantially. Maybe it's just because the Holiday Rush is over, and everyone is just relaxing, or maybe it's because my tooth aches have held me from going outside (which isn't really true), but either way, the days have become boring.

I didn't go out today, rather spent my afternoon with Robert Downey Jr. in Iron Man, but the day looked gorgeous. I just wished it was a bit warmer..I miss warm days with soft wind blowing through. The weather doesn't seem to let up its cool spell, but it's considerably warmer than the previous weeks.

 Another gift from Klaus:


unrelenting toothaches due to growing Wisdom teeth and my never ending cavities. THEY WON'T STOP.

Of course my period would come the morning of Christmas day, out of all the days of the week to come. I'm guessing it was my christmas present from Klaus, and the horrific cramps that came with it were just the add-ons to the surprise.

It was incredibly cold and rainy today, but it was calming. It's sometimes nice to have a difference in L.A. weather, even if it's been cold for the cities standard. I called my grandmother from South Dakota, and she noted how it was 17 degrees over there. She considers that a blessing, especially in Blizzard-like conditions. My family went out to eat some lunch, and to see the rain pattering on the ground was very soothing, even though my cramps weren't.

Fucking cramps.

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S!!!!


Merry Christmas friends list. ♥

I really had no intention of going out and seeing Twilight, even if it's the latest craze for teens and adults alike, until a few of my friends praised it not for the plot, but for the cinematography. The most I've read of the books is a few pages and the synopsis as told through Wikipedia, so I had the gist of what the series is about, so when I sat down and the lights dimmed down, I was expecting a pretty bad film filled with cliché's and chock full of "storming out of the theater" potential.

Now, the film did have its cliché's, but it was definitely my money's worth. It was a well-rounded film that was easy to follow for people who have never read the book (yours truly) and acceptable enough for the fanatics of the series to be satiated for two hours. There were times that I would roll my eyes at how corny some lines were, but I had to remember that this is directed at younger people who like semi-banal romances.

Also the ideal of Mormonism was so prominent in this film that it hurt. Reading book reviews of the Twilight series has kind of interested me into reading more about Mormons, and every time I look up from the computer screen aghast by some of their beliefs. No offense to any Mormons on my flist (are there?) but I'm thoroughly turned off by Mormonism.

My friend was definitely right about the cinematography of the film, which was outstanding and breathtaking. I really want to visit Portland, because from this film and What the Bleep Do We Know?!..it just looks a really beautiful place to live.

I think the cast was pretty cool and the acting wasn't bad either. Kristen Stewart reminds me of a boyish Emma Watson, and of course Robert Pattison is hot and perfect for any vampiric role. EVERYONE WAS SO PALE, MY GOD. Also, Nikki Reed was in this movie, which was a very nice surprise. I'm slightly attracted to Billy Burke...

All in all, I didn't mind this movie at all, and actually wouldn't mind seeing it again. It's not OMFG material that deserves an Academy Award, but it's definitely a movie that is great to watch with a few friends at home when it comes out on DVD.

CHRISTMAS SHOPPING = STRESSSSSS

• 13:43 In wachovia on a cloudy Monday. #
• 13:43 I want to listen to No Doubt.. #

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Sorry for the lack of updating.


My friend's crush told someone that he doesn't like her because she was too nice and too happy most of the time. HOW ARE THESE REASONS TO NOT LIKE SOMEONE?


Men need to stop being retarded. It's never going to happen, but honestly, women would want the truth over some half-assed, bullshit excuse on how they are too "inferior" or that you're "too happy".

• 07:51 Italian class = joke #

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• 16:43 @feellinecancer epic conversations are epic. #
• 16:49 The people in my English class are all equally epic...with some few exceptions. #
• 16:53 Finally have twitter on my blackberry...TWITTERBERRY! #
• 07:51 My indstudy class is ridiculous...fo serious. #
• 09:18 Its randomly REALLY cold. What the hell.. #
• 12:28 It was freezing. I was cold. And he didn't hold me, like I hoped. Let go of that possibility, Steph.. #

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• 12:31 You know, I know that he doesn't feel the same way, but changing routine is bullshit. STRAIGHT UP, bullshit. #
• 12:40 @feellinecancer fo'serious. I don't understand why I OFFERED to walk him to his class, & we're going, & he some1 pulls him and GOES. BS #
• 12:41 @esplanade I miss you <3 #
• 12:45 Not to be conceited, but I'm WAY prettier than H.S. & L.E. COMBINED. I don't walk him to any classes anymore and he doesn't walk me to mine. #

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